It’s dangerously easy to romanticize the early years of my substance use. Good thing I have embarrassing journal entries to remind me of just how bad it was!
My heart goes out to you…when you cracked opened the diary of your youth and saw how even then you could read the writing on the wall…or when you recounted the scene with your friend who was drunk and joked at your expense. Oh I’ve been there and I’m reaching through these electromagnetic waves with a mighty hug. Just last year (my first year sober when I decided to do some personal excavating) I opened the diaries of my 20s and learned that I went to AA once (an experience I had no recollection of until rereading some of those piercing details). I almost fell off my chair! I write about in my post “Drunk Journaling: Ghosts of AA Past and Present” if you’re interested. But all this to say, I don’t think a post on Substack has resonated more and I’m grateful I came across your account!
Thank you! It was definitely a mix of feeling sad for my past self and residual feelings of embarrassment. I felt way more nervous about posting this one than any other substacks I’ve done so far. But it really helps to know it resonated with you and I will definitely read your post about having a similar experience! Thank you for the comment ❤️
My heart goes out to you…when you cracked opened the diary of your youth and saw how even then you could read the writing on the wall…or when you recounted the scene with your friend who was drunk and joked at your expense. Oh I’ve been there and I’m reaching through these electromagnetic waves with a mighty hug. Just last year (my first year sober when I decided to do some personal excavating) I opened the diaries of my 20s and learned that I went to AA once (an experience I had no recollection of until rereading some of those piercing details). I almost fell off my chair! I write about in my post “Drunk Journaling: Ghosts of AA Past and Present” if you’re interested. But all this to say, I don’t think a post on Substack has resonated more and I’m grateful I came across your account!
Thank you! It was definitely a mix of feeling sad for my past self and residual feelings of embarrassment. I felt way more nervous about posting this one than any other substacks I’ve done so far. But it really helps to know it resonated with you and I will definitely read your post about having a similar experience! Thank you for the comment ❤️
I know what you mean and felt the same when I posted on the subject. But it definitely strikes a chord and I’m so glad you did — happy to connect!
Me too!
I appreciate your photoshop efforts
lol thank you, I think I have a real talent for it