And sometimes it's a bunch of bottoms, like falling down a rocky hill. I knew for decades that I had an issue with it and got to a point where I was mostly done, but the complete ending took a while. Any one of those little episodes could or should have put an end to it, but I couldn't quite see that life without it could be full and complete.
There was a time, early in recovery, where I was a little upset I didn’t have the totally epic major event that involved felonies and multi state drunken adventures that led to my sobriety. Instead it was just a collection of low points and stupid things. It felt like my addiction didn’t have a proper, epic, finale it deserved.
I’m now glad I didn’t have that but also I appreciate how devastating my addiction was because it took time from me. It took time from my friends, my family, my work. It was a lot of my 20’s.
You can get off the down elevator on any floor. Bottom can be what you make it, i.e. recognizing the seemingly lesser harmful consequences as not acceptable per the standard you hold for yourself.
And sometimes it's a bunch of bottoms, like falling down a rocky hill. I knew for decades that I had an issue with it and got to a point where I was mostly done, but the complete ending took a while. Any one of those little episodes could or should have put an end to it, but I couldn't quite see that life without it could be full and complete.
yes! a million little things!
There was a time, early in recovery, where I was a little upset I didn’t have the totally epic major event that involved felonies and multi state drunken adventures that led to my sobriety. Instead it was just a collection of low points and stupid things. It felt like my addiction didn’t have a proper, epic, finale it deserved.
I’m now glad I didn’t have that but also I appreciate how devastating my addiction was because it took time from me. It took time from my friends, my family, my work. It was a lot of my 20’s.
thank you for this
You can get off the down elevator on any floor. Bottom can be what you make it, i.e. recognizing the seemingly lesser harmful consequences as not acceptable per the standard you hold for yourself.